lonely and lost my passion
Bismillah Pejam celik dah nak dekat setahun melepasi chapter baru dalam hidup : housemanship. It's hard and I could say the hardest thing so far I need to overcome throughout my entire life. Padahal time medical school boleh tahan ujian yang datang menyinggah tapi now I started to realized why housemanship is tougher than medical school. Entah, bila masuk housemnaship rasa sangat lonely even I can work well with others. Takdelah work well sangat, tapi untuk kerja dan buat ward works sama-sama tu memang takde masalah sangatlah. Walaupun bila jumpa depan-depan tak reti nak tegur nak bersembang dan beramah mesra. Being an introvert sometimes put me in a really hard situation. Susah sangat nak buat kawan, susah nak cari kawan yang betul ngam, lagilah nak share certain thoughts. Susah. Sangat. Kalau dulu dekat Jordan, sangat senang nak cari kawan yang boleh duduk borak sembang berjam-jam pun tak puas. Sharing everything and all your thoughts even the craziest one, telling every secrets